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her love is fractal
we cherish it still
dark rum and ginger beer
courses through our veins
i sit in her memory
smoke another cigarette
get lost in haze
and wake up tomorrow
ready to forget it all
i went to bed
a little late today
i am scared of the marks
sleep paralysis
leaves
on my neck
on april 29
two-thousand-and-sixteen
i was lying on a wet street alley
struggling against molten hands
a coat to big for me
hurled over my body
covering my skin
and the purple and blue sunsets
engraved on it
– i ask my body for forgiveness
in stifled sobs
around noon
every day.
i wake up in a slaughterhouse
glass windows do nothing
to save me
crawl to the emergency exit
on hands
and knees
palms
and feet
a trail of blood
for gretel
to find me
in a month or two
by then
i will either
have recovered
or died